[From our March Newsletter]
I posted my theme for the year – Listen — around my house. So I’m on the watch for what God wants to teach me, and He seems to be drawing me to His Spirit. I know He lives in me, and I’ve had an ongoing conversation with Him for years. I ask for guidance, He guides. I ask for comfort, He comforts. But I’m learning He is more than merely a candy machine, dispensing money or answers or happiness when I input some prayers. He is Holy. The Almighty God of the universe lives in us. Sometimes I have forgotten what a big deal this actually is. Let me also say that my education in the Spirit has been very humbling. I’ve learned to reverence Him so much more – a powerful God who is not a toy to be played with.
God has always been there for me over the years, as a counselor Who I can trust, Who handles my emotions, and Who heals my soul. But my relationship with Him as a person was rather emotion-less. These past few months I’ve been on a journey to fall more in love with God. I’ve gained this ridiculous longing for Heaven I’ve never had before. Sure, I knew Heaven was perfect. It was going to be fun. But now, I see it differently. God is there. And I want to be with Him so much. This world is so broken, but Heaven is whole. God is there — that’s why it’s whole. So I do feel I’m falling more in love with the Lord. I am so grateful for all He’s done in my heart my entire life, and especially in this new year. I hope to fall more in love with Him not just the rest of this year but all the years of my life.
P.S. Some of what I’m learning I read in Francis Chan’s Forgotten God.